Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Heart screams (31-HP Day 30)

[Warning--trigger: abuse]

You say you love me
You lie, my heart screams
You say you won't hurt me
Better stay two arm lengths away

What scarier?
An empty Wal-Mart?
A Wal-Mart full of people?
It is a toss up

A pan dropped on the floor
My heart races for an hour
Never been in combat
Must be crazy

Not abuse at all
Just a really bad kid
Fear, blood and pain
Perfectly normal childhood

Not allowed to complain
Continuous sacrifice
Everyone else more important
Must do as they wish

The tired greyness
Millstone around my neck
Locked in my own mind
Unable to speak

Must be crazy
Perfectly normal childhood
Just a really bad kid
After all, you would not lie

Must not talk about this
Perfect family
Not abuse at all
You lie, my heart screams



4 comments:

Fred McMurray said...

An empty walmart is the scariest. usually means you are all alone

Karin Copperwood said...

Your final stanza made me cringe. No one should feel that. Ever.

Suzanne Williams said...

Great poem.
I enjoyed the video of you reading too :-)

Suzanne Williams said...

Great poem.
I enjoyed the video of you reading too :-)